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Thejailhouse letterthatMatthew Taylor Colemansent to a friend in late May gives more clues to the state of mind of the California man who allegedlykilled his two childrenin Mexico with a spearfishing gun.
Now that Coleman is unable to access those conspiracy theories on websites and blogs, he says that he is beginning to see things more clearly.
“I’m sorting through it all now,” he wrote. “There’s a lot to unpack, but I have to figure out what I really believe, but I don’t have access to information anymore, so I’m having to use my mind to figure things out.”
“It’s a good thing,” he continued. “There was so much noise and so much confusion, and a lot of that is gone now.”
Kaleo and Roxy Coleman.Matthew Taylor Coleman/instagram

But he didn’t return, instead allegedly driving the children into Mexico. Two days later, authorities allege, he took the kids to a ranch, where hekilled them with a spearfishing gunand returned to his hotel a few hours later. He was arrested when he attempted to cross the border back into the U.S.
Matthew Taylor Coleman.Instagram

Friends told PEOPLE earlier this year that Coleman spent hours a day on websites and message boards, reading about the conspiracy theories.
PEOPLE has not been able to reach Coleman’s public defender.
source: people.com