Jade Roper Tolbert.Photo: JC Olivera/Getty Images
Jade Roper Tolbertis reflecting on a “dark” period after welcoming her second child.
The 34-year-oldBachelor in Paradisealum — who shares three children with husband Tanner Tolbert, daughterEmerson “Emmy” Avery, 3, and sonsBrooks Easton, 17 months, andReed Harrison, 9 weeks — opened up on Instagram Monday about remaining true to her experiences welcoming each of her babies.
Roper Tolbert says she battled a “dark depression” for six months afterBrooks' sudden birth at home, which she previously recounted as traumatic.
“Fact is, I was fighting a dark depression for the first 6 month after Brooks was born and no one would have known it,” she continues. “And fact is, I’m not that perceived person they spoke of anymore. Each birth also births a new mother, a new born version of ourselves we are getting to know as well.”
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Roper Tolbert explains she keeps candid on social media to help connect with others going through the same.
The reality star says she’ll continue to show her true-to-life experiences on Instagram, sharing photos that can display the “little bit of sadness behind the eyse” since “none of us have it all together all the time, especially during this pandemic.”
“I can’t be a highlight reel,” she says. “Pretty days, awful days and days in between simply exist. If you continue to follow me, I hope it gives you a big deep breath of air, one that exhales all the way out of your chest. That breath that speaks permission you are okay to be here, just the way you are in this moment, no judgment, just simply being.”
In a recent Instagram Story Q&A session, Roper Tolbert shared how shebonded with each of her newborns, each in a unique way. “Emmy was instantaneously,” she said. “I felt a disconnect with Brooks (I think because ofmy birth trauma with him. I also think the way he came into the world affected him as well.), and the bond with him took time.”
“The bond with Reed was instant as well, but I had to give myself permission to feel it and not be afraid of it, if that makes sense,” continues Roper Tolbert. “My bond now with each of them is so special and I treasure each unique relationship and love them beyond anything else.”
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source: people.com
