Sean “Diddy” Combsis working through his grief after the death of his ex-girlfriend Kim Porter.
Porter, who raised four children with Combs,was found dead on Thursdayat age 47.
Afterbreaking his silencewith a video of the former couple dancing and canoodling for the camera while the model was pregnant, Combs shared a peek at a private memorial he held for Porter on Sunday afternoon. Held at his candle-filled Bel-Air home, about100 family and friends gather to honor Porter, a source tells PEOPLE. Mourners includedPharrell Williams,Mary J. Blige,French MontanaandKourtney Kardashian.
“It was a beautiful memorial for Kim,” a source tells PEOPLE. “Diddy is still beside himself. He was very emotional, but grateful how many of his friends showed up to honor Kim.”
In the Instagram story videos, Combs surveyed six glamorous photos of Porter set up on easels outside a home. On the ground, candles burned.
Sean Combs Instagram; John Shearer/Getty Images
He added three more Instagram posts, including aslideshow of picturesof time he spent with Porter and their brood. “I’ll raise our family just like you taught me to. Love you forever!!!!” he said. “I CANT BELIEVE THIS S—!!!!!! F—!!!!!! Smfh.”
“Words can’t explain,” he captioned astylish photoof Porter in a beaded gold dress. “FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER!!! Infinity and BEYOND!!!!”
Kim Porter.Sean Combs Instagram
Alongside abreezy snapshotof Porter grinning behind the wheel of a boat, Combs dropped five hearts.
The Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Office confirmed Porter’s deathin a statement. Officers were alerted after a woman was found unresponsive in Toluca Lake, California. She was declared dead at 11:40 a.m. local time on Thursday.
“Diddy is devastated and shocked,” a source previouslytold PEOPLE. “He and Kim were still very close friends and co-parents even though their romantic relationship didn’t work.”
“They were still a family,” the source continued.
Diddy, Kim Porter and family.Sean Combs Instagram
Combs and Porter, who dated on and off from the ’90s through 2007, share a 20-year-old son Christian and 11-year-old twins D’Lila Star and Jessie James. Combs, who has two kids from other relationships, considers Porter’s 27-year-old son Quincy his own.
“We were more than best friends, we were more than soulmates,” he concluded. “WE WERE SOME OTHER S—!! And I miss you so much. Super Black Love.”
source: people.com
